The Castle on the Hill, Gorgeous
I want to wear a luxurious tiara
Not just as the Princess but the Queen
The most elegant hostess of the ball
No longer the ragged uninvited guest
Unknown and unseen no more
The spotlight shines brightly upon me
——
Time passes swiftly like a quicksand
Still staring at the castle on the hill
Indeed triumphant from my disease
Robbed from the only treasure on hand
No royalties nor knights come to my aid
Will those vagabonds grant my wishes?
——
The castle on the hill exists up high
Its doors & windows are padlocked
Dreaming that someday I’ll hold its key
Perhaps, I’m not well-versed in praying
Poorly constructed and redundant sentences
I wonder if God sees the pureness of the heart
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Dearest Father, teach me how to pray?
I don’t know what words will please you
All I know is to do my best joyfully
Share my love, time and skills to others
Should I gamble for luck or labor more years?
God, is it too much to ask for that castle on the hill?
I don’t know what are we doing with our lives, Gorgeous?
Tragedy happened… I was on vacation with my sister together with my colleagues in Bantayan island. I was supposed to relax and enjoy a quick holiday break. Nonetheless, my vacation was cut short because my sister saw in our CCTV that someone broke in to our house. We immediately went home because the incident scared us and we had no peace of mind thinking what were taken.
When I reached home, my lights were turned on and my room was a mess. My iPhone 10, the necklace my cousin gave me and bracelet we’re taken. He probably took my iWatch and dropped it along the way because I later found it on the sofa. He even took my brother’s iPhone 6. I felt weak, anxious and tired after the incident. It was even the worst feeling than chemo.
Out there, you reached and cared. The power hug worked. However, I couldn’t blame me for your doubts. I wanted to demand more attention but I respect your time. At the end of the day, I am contented of the time you can extend and share with me. After all, we need to face our daily challenges and live our lives. We are only both careful but sometimes falling into the hands of love can only make us careless.
We don’t share the same opinions but we can always find a common ground to settle any point of views. There are no winners nor losers, only seekers. Hope the search and explorations are over. Let it be God’s well, then…
Is it a waste of efforts and time? Are we enjoying the process? I don’t know what are we doing with our lives, Gorgeous… We only trust in God and live our faith.. He’ll never fail us. God never failed me in my fight to triumph against cancer. This is my third chance…. How many chances do I need to find the one?
God has risen! Alleluia, Gorgeous! I am blessed to have found you. Why wait seeing each other in heaven when there are all possibilities on Earth?
A girl can only hope. I’m very bad in quitting after all…
Ciao, Gorgeous?
Ciao, hello, Gorgeous!
My redemption or downfall?
Gorgeous, ciao, goodbye!
How silly it is that a simple haiku can sum up how everything went between us! Constantly reminding myself that I’m a beautiful and gifted person. Nothing and no one can change that, Gorgeous! I love living and continuing the process of healing no matter what the challenges are… I won’t give up on my prayers because God isn’t deaf and blind to the desires of my heart. I lift up everything in the glory of His name. Gorgeous, lucky you because youth is on your side. You don’t have to risk blindly and foolishly. However, lucky me because I’m always the FOOL full of a big deal of imagination. If I were somewhat happy then, I can assure you my happiness would find me and there’s no more running away like I used to do.
Remember the song? We were obsessed, weren’t we?
I’m Beginning Again, Gorgeous!
And for the first time
What’s past is past
Ciao! Finally, I can proclaim that “I’m over it!!!”.
Gorgeous, slowly you’re fading away in my dreams and the wounds don’t hurt anymore. Looking back, my heart broke not only once but plenty of times and your sword’s blade pierced it more deeply than others did. Those were the times, when every time I shouted at the peak of the mountain, the echoes never bounced back only tears running down my cheeks. It was then, I felt that my high heels were my refuge but still, I felt so tiny and was never counted at all. Gorgeous, the fault was never ours blame it on the galaxy. If only the stars aligned for us and we were not universe apart, perhaps chances were not that slim and the probabilities were high. All those unkind words spoken out of spite only turned me into an ice-cold queen, forcibly pushing away the opportunities to allow my heart’s recovery.
Nonetheless, when I was in the operating room, I was lost in fathomless darkness. Indeed, I fought bravely for survival and to have another chance of my existence. After the surgery, even though my body didn’t fully respond, I jokingly exclaimed to my aunt and sister, “I should get married because the surgeon, his assistant, anesthesiologist, and nurses had seen me naked!” I was ashamed of the thought that I already exposed myself to a lot of people, it felt like being stripped of my dignity. Moreover, it was part of the process that I had to undergo to make ME the bigger person than my sickness. Of course, I refused to let it dictate how my journey would end. Instead of mourning for the biopsy result, I lifted everything to God and told myself, I would make it because Jesus is with me in carrying my cross. Feeling blessed knowing that there are so many people I used to know, family, friends, colleagues, even acquaintances, and more who include me in their prayers. At first, I didn’t know how to pull everything off. Then, in the long run, God paved the way for my treatment possible and almost free of charge. After all that I have been through, I am always grateful to God for my wonderful family especially my sister who never left me including also those amazing people and medical practitioners surrounding me for they are the instruments of my survival to happen. I hope one day, I can return the favor for I won’t be able to make it on my own. As of this very moment, I can only promise them that I will overcome this disease and be healthier, bringing out the best version of myself to the world.
Every time I went for treatment, I always sought God’s strength. No matter how painful and disappointing, my will to survive never diminished. As my treatment procedure went on, I would murmur to myself “I must be healthy because someone out there is waiting for me!” Hooray! I did it, Gorgeous! Congratulations to me! I slay! Hence, at the beginning of the new year, I had to rethink and reflect if I should give my heart another chance. Is it something compulsory or what I want? Despite all my doubts and fears, I only knew that I couldn’t give up on the chance of finding my Adam, that one person God made for me.
Gorgeous, here I am grinning as if I am a teenager again. My phone calls and messages are not left unanswered. The lines I composed are no longer clandestine. My artworks are no longer mediocre but something I can work on, enhance, and improve. My desire to become an artist is reborn. I don’t need to feel insecure about my age instead feel proud of how I dauntlessly fought to reach this far. This time, it’s alright for me to be a chatterbox and I am finally heard. No more holding back and let God’s light illuminate my life. Hey, Gorgeous I don’t want to waste my second chance looking back on what could have been but never happened. I’m in a place where God just lets me laugh and have the best days of my life. It has been a long time since I composed a long post because it took me a while to feel this way again. No longer trapped in the fantasies that I only played in my head. Only living in my reality while walking into the isle of my dreams where God’s light shines the brightest. How amazing it is that my love for my faith is my crowning glory!
Arrivederci, Gorgeous. I’m writing a new chapter now where every word is no longer synonymous with hurt but parallel & rhymes with happiness. There’s no rewriting the past because we can never turn back time. We can only live in the present and be who we are with people who truly matter in our lives.
The doctor no longer restricts me from cold drinks. Likewise, I’m reducing glucose intake in my system.
Hey, thanks for the drinks anyway!
“Begin Again” by Taylor Swift
But you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it’s strange that you think I’m funny, ’cause
He never did
You’re invited, Gorgeous🥰
A quick stroll to Ayala to buy stuff… afterwards, we went straight to my mom’s place to celebrate her birthday. Then, we gave food and toys to the kids in the neighborhood. I also gave presents to my godchildren, nieces and nephews. The kids are enjoying their presents. We also did a family exchange of gifts for our secret 🎅 Santa 🧑🎄. What a fun and memorable evening!!!
Beneath the Ocean, You and I, Gorgeous❤️🥰😍
Beneath the ocean’s azure sheen,
You and I, a dream unseen.
In the deep where shadows play,
Our love takes root and finds its way.
Among the coral gardens, we roam,
Hand in hand, creating our own home.
With every tide, our hearts entwine,
In the vast embrace of the briny brine.
Silent whispers in the seaweed’s dance,
A love story born of circumstance.
In the ocean’s heart, where mysteries lie,
You and I, beneath the endless sky.
Sunken sunsets paint our love’s decree
Beneath the ocean, you and I, Gorgeous.
With every tide, a promise anew.
In the ocean’s heart, our love is true.
A long drive to Il Corso, Gorgeous
Dining by the shore with fam, feeling the fresh sea breeze
Let’s Grill, Gorgeous❤️
Another fun December evening with my family. It’s barbecue night for us!!! We truly have a healthy appetite!!!
Hugs & Kisses, Gorgeous l❤️😘
My 2nd time in Kahoy Cafe was a moment to cherish with the FAM. I’m loving my hot choco but I had fast digestion and my colon was unable to hold it. I had to do what I should swiftly do…
What a beautiful day!!! Feeling the love… so, hugs and kisses to you Gorgeous😘❤️
Christmas Celebration Extended, Gorgeous🎄🎉🎅🧑🎄
It’s Beginning to Look a Lot Like Christmas, Gorgeous 🎄❤️🎁
It’s a season of delight and unity… What a beautiful day together with my FAM. Thank you Jesus for this beautiful moment that I will forever cherished. There no place like home in celebrating this season of love, peace and happiness.
You’re My Endless Dream, Gorgeous 🛌💭😘😽
You’re My Endless Dream
In dreams, you linger, a constant theme,
A spectral presence in the nightly scheme.
Through the veil of sleep, you softly gleam,
Always present, in each moonbeam.
Whispers of your laughter, echoes clear,
In the dream’s realm, you’re always near.
A dance of shadows, a love sincere,
In the mystic landscapes, we reappear.
Through slumber’s journey, your face agleam,
An ethereal waltz, a silent stream.
In the twilight realm, where fantasies teem,
You’re always in my dream, a cherished seam.
The night unfolds with a tender seam,
A tapestry of us, in a surreal dream.
In the realm of sleep, a timeless scheme,
You’re forever in my heart, my endless dream.
To kick off the day, I had to be up around 4 am despite I was home around midnight because I went to my older brother’s place together with my siblings. He is employed overseas and he’s home to celebrate Yuletide season with the fam. Funny 😁 thing was, my dog took over my bed and comfortably lied on his back. He couldn’t be bothered even if I walked out of the room.
The whole neighborhood was still asleep but I am all set for my scheduled checkup with my oncologist. It was 4.30 am, my cousin was not yet there to fetch me. I was concerned of the possibility that he might ditch me. After a series of missed calls and unanswered messages, I took a hike towards the guardhouse and then I booked a ride. It was almost 5 am when my ride arrived. Kudos to the rider for our journey went smoothly. Moreover, on the way to the hospital, I witnessed an accident on an intersection. It was between a motorcycle and a premium taxi. Thanks heavens, it wasn’t bloody and no one was harmed.
Welcome to public healthcare wherein the system is haywire and disappointing to many. One of the patients, bursted to fury and ranted loudly at the waiting area due to change of protocols. I was all ears to her sentiments. On the other hand, I felt complaining was unnecessary since everything is free. Patience is the key sister!!!
Gladly, I made it to the list and had a chance to speak with my oncologist. One of the doctors there, used to be my student. Then, he proudly exclaimed it to other patients in the waiting area. There one was patient who commented that there was no age difference of how we physically looked. Thank God to my good 🧬 genes!!!
My doctor told me that I needed to undergo some laboratory tests such as tumor counts, body scan and more to monitor my cancer. I felt relief after talking to her because for the past few days, I was anxious and worried with what the next steps to my treatments.
Hey, I managed to go home on my own. Yet, I lost my way and took an incorrect ride. Me and my mindlessness!!! Haist!!! 😱😫🙈🤦🏻♀️
Hi Gorgeous, My Twin Flame 🔥 🔥 🔥
TWIN 🔥 FLAMES 🔥 ENTWINED
In the cosmic dance, a connection divine,
Twin flames entwined, a celestial design.
Mirror souls, reflections deep and clear,
Bound by destiny, drawing near.
Two flames flicker, one sacred flame,
A cosmic ballet, an eternal game.
Opposite yet one, a paradoxical dance,
Twin flames united, an intricate trance.
Through lifetimes entwined, destiny’s thread,
In the tapestry of love, where souls are led.
A dance of energies, harmonies entwined,
Twin flames’ union, destiny defined.
Across realms they journey, a cosmic tide,
Two spirits converging, side by side.
In the alchemy of love, a fusion complete,
Twin flames’ reunion, destiny sweet.
Through trials and echoes of lifetimes past,
Twin flames endure, a love so vast.
In the sacred union, a flame’s ascent,
Twin flames united, destiny’s event.
Perhaps… Another Shot, Gorgeous!
Another chemo treatment on the 7th of September… it’s almost a month waiting since I’m having it in public hospital. Nonetheless, I have no business to rant instead I’m filled with gratefulness for I managed to get in despite the long queue. In my battle against cancer, I’m determined to win and let God be my strength together with my doctors, nurses, colleagues, friends and family as the champions fighting side by side with me. I’m not alone… So, I must go on courageously even there are times that I’ll tremble.
Will I stop, Gorgeous? Nope. I will give it another shot if there’s another chance.
Knock! Knock! Hey, it’s me! I’m not the problem… are you willing to open the doors of your heart for me❤️
Is there more to our dreams, Gorgeous 😴
Performed by: Mary Costa, Bill Shirley, Chorus – Sleeping Beauty
“Once Upon a Dream” by Lana Del Rey
Is it just a dream? A memory? A fantasy? Only God can tell if there’s indeed more…
Meet Me at Kahoy Cafe, Gorgeous
Worst, Gorgeous
You always told me that I could make it happen. You believed in me even I lost faith in my skills. You thought I’m unaware but you supported me and actions did speak louder than words. Wasn’t it hilarious for you knew I did the same? Fast forward to today, my skills are rusty and unappreciated. Perhaps, what I love doing is all in my head now. I am not really that good those who learned from YouTube are way better than me. I don’t want to lose my magic touch. Am I losing it?
My Crippled Silence, Gorgeous
As the saying goes, “you can’t teach an old dog new tricks” for it is somehow perceives that a person who is old or is used to doing things in a certain way cannot learn or does not want to learn a new way. Personally, I am fully aware that I am among the quadragenarians. Despite of that, my high heels can still bring me beyond the stars and the rainbow for it’s still a very lengthy way to my prime.
Excuse me, I’m not that old! As a matter of fact, in Singapore, being in 40s is considered as still young. But it’s a different story to some of the Filipinos’ mindsets in the Philippines. Feel free to count my age. But contrary to its higher number, I never stopped learning. That’s NO CAP, Gorgeous! After surgery, I relearned and reviewed by signing up courses online, reading eBooks with my iPad and getting acquainted with the trends not only in fashion but also with technology. Despite being in chemo, the desire of learning and my optimism in stepping up my game never halts as I continue fighting for my health. After all, life begins at forty!
Undeniably, I did some entertainment on the side for I binge-watched RuPaul’s Drag Race, few anime shows including my all-time favorite “One Piece’, and a lot of Netflix shows to mention. Well, I was hooked with the Korean series “The Glory” that I stayed up till 4 am just to complete the series in a single shot. Of course, I am in YouTube and TikTok in between. With all of that, God is always the top priority. There’s no skipping of prayer time and checking in with Jesus and Mother Mary. Most of the time, I pray for Saint Archangel Michael’s protection and also to Padre Pio’s intercession for healing and steadfastness.
Moreover, I’m always out of the picture ever since I am diagnosed with cancer. It’s not easy to be in chemotherapy treatment because there are so many restrictions and one of many is to keep away from the sunlight. Hence, I can’t join family outings particularly going to the beach considering the temperature outdoors will sometimes reach beyond 38 degree celsius. In other words, summer heatwaves isn’t mine to to take advantage because it can be deadly. Oh, how much I missed the beach! Always being left out feels unavoidably lonesome but I should not let my darkness get into my nerves because it’s more deadly considering I have cancer. Every time we dine out, I am not chewing up to savor the food for I am left with a quarter of my colon, so I can quickly pass motion. Not complaining Lord because my surgeon even considered taking out my entire colon and the consequence is that I won’t be able to control my bowel movements. Imagine that, I can’t. Then, the disappointing part of this is that with all the family plans, I am unintentionally never counted. Don’t get me wrong if it really feels awful, Gorgeous. It’s hard to be just phlegmatic with the situation and let it pass. I am sincerely more than grateful to God for blessing me with my wonderful family members because when I was fighting for my life, they gave it all and never left my side. Particularly thanks a million to my mama and sister’s efforts and prayers, I may asked a lot but actually no explanations needed. Of course, I am forever thankful for their care, consideration, love, generosity and kindness. Nonetheless, my forced quietness questions my purpose and relevance in keep on going.
Since I am not fit to work, I stayed at home for the longest time and it bored me to the max. Come on, it’s so hot in here! My youngest brother advised me to consider working as a video editor online via my cousin. He checked out with my cousin and he said that it might be challenging for me because video editing isn’t using MS PowerPoint. What??? Can I elaborate my resume? My CV is authentic and not only for the sake of impressing employers. Every descriptive words, certifications and skills were the fruit of my sweats, tears and all nighters. I didn’t just learn from YouTube and Google Academies. I earned certificates from prestigious trainers and institutions in Singapore. I worked with the most difficult people that many millennials won’t dare to cross path. Seriously??? When I was employed in Singapore, I am the specialist and expert of the field, and many of my colleagues bowed down to my expertise and clapped for all my contributions. Too bad, I don’t have the citizenship and God has His plans for me. So, I’m no hero but back to ZERO. Is my legacy flushed to the toilet? No way, can’t be! I REBUKED & REFUSED!!!
Speaking of toilets… According to a YouTuber, Samurai Matcha that one of Japanese habits that will make your life so much better is cleaning the toilet. Sounds gross! I do clean my toilet even a week after every chemo treatment. No one will do it for me so I take action to get dirty. The vlogger, Samurai Matcha even added that cleaning the toilet in Japan is a great habit that makes your life successful, bring good luck and humbling yourself. He added that the founder of Yellow Hat, Shuzaburo Kagiyama is one of Japan’s leading toilet cleaners and continued cleaning the company’s toilet for 53 years. Well with that being said, I’m glad that I never failed cleaning the toilet twice a week. After all, it’s not too late for me to become successful and age will never ever hinder me. I also firmly believe that luck never left me because Jesus always got my back. Above all, with this simple habit, I am reminded to humble down every time I have the urge to elaborate my experiences, qualifications and what I used to be. Elsa sang in Frozen “… the past is in the past, so let it go…” Ok fine. But my cup of tea and God’s gifts shouldn’t diminish with letting go.
The beef between the Jalosjos and TVJ was put in the spotlight after Dapitan’s mayor Bullet Jalosjos’ interview with Boy Abunda’s Fast Talk, which the former Senate President Tito Sotto responded in a series of press releases. Tito Sotto even mentioned in his interview with Cristy Fermin’s YouTube channel Showbiz Now Na that his brother, Vic Sotto has not received any salary from the show Eat Bulaga as one of the primary hosts for a long time. Likewise, Vic is still visible in the show despite of age and not profiting because he loves what he is doing. I can relate to Vic for living life to the fullest and furthest is be present and excel in what you enjoy doing, and maximizing your potentials. Similarly, I am deeply in love with the craft of my choice. I can even visualize myself aging like a fine wine in this profession like Vic Sotto who remained in Eat Bulaga for more than forty years. To all the people, who extends to me their kindness and understanding to keep my position, I can’t thank you enough. My career is my motivational drive to win my battle against cancer. Hence, please don’t take it away from me. Even if I am not fully compensated, I am still willing to extend a hand beyond my job descriptions because it makes me energetic to go on living.
There’s no cure for cancer but I can’t be overthrown by this vicissitude situation. My attending physician explained to me that there are many studies conducted proving that cancer can be overcome with precautions, healthy lifestyle and monitoring. So, it’s not yet the end of the line for anyone who has it including me. I am always ever ready to excel and do swiftly what I have been doing for more than a decade. It’s a matter of style and creativity, not always with technicality. I shed some tears while I peed, another episode of my toilet drama. It felt that my cancer crippled me when it shouldn’t be. I chose to be quiet because if I would speak, my ego would surely soar high at its peak. In my silence, I told myself to be humble and obedient. Humility is everything and words should not ruin relationships. Besides, I recall not my pride but gratitude and kindness. I know me, my words once ruined many and shattered me as well.
Images edited with Peachy and PicsArt apps.
It’s Excruciating, Gorgeous. All the way to the bones!!!
My Redeemer Saves Me Today, Gorgeous
Does Papa Forget Me, Gorgeous?
It’s already summer and it’s so hot that my room temperature feels like sauna. Get me out from the heat!!! Not me, I’m still in my second chemo session and on Monday will be the third one. I’d rather be home because I quickly pass a motion. I’m not certain how clean the toilets of some venues and the oncologist reminded me not to stay under the heat for a long period of time.
I don’t want to be such a KJ ( kill joy) and ruin everyone’s weekend. So, I gave them a go signal to attend the beach party of the wolf in sheep’s clothing. Indeed, it was my decision to be left alone.
Talking about wolves, it’s not about forgiveness but justice. Besides, justice along with prudence, fortitude and temperance are cardinal virtues. Having a celebration doesn’t erase one’s fault. Hey, you’re ok now so let’s be like what we used to be! Excuse me, how about giving back what’s due, be remorseful and taking some accountability? Sometimes being too forgiving doesn’t help others realize their errors nor change their ill behaviors. Undeniably no one will ever get me for they never walk on my shoes. Remember that Jesus forgave Judas but justice was served even in the Scriptures. Judas did pay, Gorgeous. Gotta pay your dues!!!
Alright everyone’s enjoying the beach while I’m stuck at home. I was initially productive with the chores. Afterwards, I entertained myself with my gadgets and apps. I only had tuna for both breakfast and lunch. Hours passed by, it has been a long wait. What time is it? I’m getting hungry. Then, being alone for a long time having a terminal illness felt like eternity. Then, I caged myself inside my loneliness and feeling forgotten. If Papa is here, no way he would put me in such situation. Perhaps, the one I lost is the one who really cared & loved me the most. Does Papa still keep our memories? Does Papa forget me, Gorgeous?
No one will get me. After all, they are not the ones with Stage 3 Colon Cancer. Honestly, death doesn’t fear me because it means being with Almighty Father and be home with Papa. Yet, I am given a chance to go on with my mission. It will be disobedience to God to throw away my existence and surrender the battle of survival.
Even my mouth is mum, I have some internal pains particularly now that my third chemo schedule is postponed for a long interval. I tried my best to be lively and not be frustrated with the situation even if it’s truly depressing inside. Moreover, my prayers and hopes for the future strengthen my will to survive.
Of course, I love the sight of sunset in the beach, wander the lengthy seashore and feel the sand under my feet. How I miss dipping in the ocean waters for hours and pretending to swim the blue sea? Nonetheless, not now Gorgeous.
I hope that the process of physical healing won’t be lonesome. If Papa is here, he would rather be with me than be in other places especially not with that wolf. Papa always reminded me but I was so naive and so schemingly became the prey. Justice should be served to me as well.
Gorgeous Escape Not, Magic Can Happen!!!
After my evening prayers, I’ll close my eyes to escape from my fears and pains. Wanna runaway with me from the harsh reality and dive into slumberland, Gorgeous?
Moreover, in my waking hours, there’s no escape for I must face my battles with full trust in God. Then, I should compose my train of thoughts accordingly for I can make my magic happen. You just wait and see, Gorgeous.
Look, my hands can still do some artistic tricks! Not for sale… my older brother suggested that I should monetize my artworks to raise funds for my chemotherapy treatments. Well, it’s really difficult for me to imagine seeing my artworks on other’s walls because I always thought that I’m my only avid fan.
Who knows that magic can happen, too! To God be the glory, Gorgeous!!!🙏🏻😇
Gorgeous, There’s Nowhere to HIDE 🙈 🫣
Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I’m not the first to know
There’s just no getting over you
I know I’m just a fool who’s willing
To sit around and wait for you
But baby, can’t you see there’s nothing else for me to do?
I’m hopelessly devoted to you
But now there’s nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I’m out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Source: Musixmatch
Songwriters: John Farrar
Hopelessly Devoted To You lyrics © Unichappell Music Inc., Sony/atv Melody, John Farrar Music, Ensign Music Corporation
Believe that it’s possible, Gorgeous 😇🙏🏻❤️
Sunday is the day of rest
To be with God & listen to His words
Finding joy in togetherness
Sharing moments that will pass
Tomorrow won’t be the same
But nothing is impossible
Live each day, my dearest
Believe that it’s possible, Gorgeous!
It’s Salon Day, Gorgeous!
Hey, Gorgeous! Miss me? Indeed, it’s been awhile since I last posted. My illness really got the best of me for the past few months. Moreover, I won’t drown into the pit of my loneliness eternally. I should courageously get up for life must go on with faith. After all, I firmly believe Jesus lives within me. Well, I’ll tell you the whole narrative of my sickness some other time.
Anyway a big shoutout to my sister-in-law for inviting me and the rest of the family to the blessing of her beauty salon. May God grant her and all staff of Shat’s Beauty Studio abundance and plenty of blessings. They will definitely make a lot of their clients feel good about themselves.
Who says being ill is equivalent to ugliness? Hey, I deserve a little pampering of myself! Don’t you agree, Gorgeous? New hairstyle for me with my dog, ‘Luffy’.
Always a Piece of Me, Gorgeous ❤️
Oh no, Gorgeous?!!
Unlearning
Relearn
ME
Where are you,
Gorgeous
You?
Goodnight now!
Morning?
What???
Happiness
All yours
Mine
You are here
In my
Heart
Forever
Always
Next
Tomorrow
Once more
Now
I’ll see you
Again
Here
Not dreaming
Awake
Love
My Gorgeous ❤️
Only you
Yes!!!
So we should party, all night… Gorgeous!
I heard you’re feeling nothing’s going right
Why don’t you let me stop by?
The clock is ticking, running out of time
So we should party, all night
So cover your eyes, I have a surprise
I hope you got a healthy appetite
If you wanna dance, if you want it all
You know that I’m the girl that you should call
Boy, when you’re with me
I’ll give you a taste
Make it like your birthday everyday
I know you like it sweet
So you can have your cake
Give you something good to celebrate
So make a wish
I’ll make it like your birthday everyday
I’ll be your gift
Give you something good to celebrate
By Katy Perry “Birthday” lyrics
RIDICULOUS 🙄🤣 Me, Gorgeous ❤️
Time to bed!!! Wait… I recalled that it was stated in the news earlier today about Leonid meteor shower (snap this moment, Gorgeous) starting on the eve of Wednesday until around before dawn on Thursday today. It was raining last night and so the sky was covered with clouds. How long should I wait to see the streaks of light above the heavens? How long should I wait for something special to happen?
A lot of people can’t wait for even a minute, claiming every seconds mean a lot. True. But, what’s the rush? Elvis Presley in his song said “only fools rush in”. Nowadays, in fast growing digital world everyone wants to keep up with the evolution of computers. Hence, the essence of waiting is a myth or it sounds ridiculous. Wait for what? Juan, the mango fruit won’t fall in your mouth. What are you waiting for? You have to stand and use your hands to pick it up! Ridiculous!!! Just like me!!!
None of the days behind us were wasted because those were the times I unleashed my monsters and thanks to you I finally freed them. I was never that mad nor that pathetic over someone or something. I never had my peace until now despite losing what I could have. I couldn’t bring food on the table but I am able to cook the herbs from our garden. The irony is in nothing I put on a lot of weight. I don’t have to care about my looks nor my clothes anymore. I never polished my nails for almost a year and I am fine with that. No one is bothered with my oily face and messy hair. A lot of people formulated presumptions before that I only cared about my appearance and spent a lot on clothing. Little did they know that I only procured what I could afford and it was my expression of self love. Am I happier now? Well, I was never lonely to begin with, I was always happy then and my smile still glows until now and even in the future. Perhaps, idling distant me from my Creator. I’m too comfortable with nothing… I’m spending more time on sleeping, so I can’t cry like a river anymore same as I used to… the sensitive old hag! No responsibilities, no worries… That’s it?
Ridiculous me, right? Well, this pandemic hindered me from taking same route again. Decisions are made sealed with signatures. No more sightings of you, Gorgeous ❤️ Rejoice, you have everything on your grasp! The queue is narrowing down to me as the only one. LOL!!! You will never know how it really feels and what it’s like… I’m glad that I wept in advance for I have no more tears to shed. Look at you, Gorgeous ❤️ Your path is too perfect while mine is the one less taken. I won’t possess the expensive gadgets and branded stuff anymore. I can’t even afford to travel the world nor get you some presents. Bear in mind, while you are surrounded with what pleases you, I am always here thousand miles away from you.
This sounds really ridiculous: the continuity of our existence isn’t written in the stars anymore but there’s after life. Certainly, I can wait forever till eternity.
Stranger Danger,😱🤯 Gorgeous ❤️
Today, I learned to be vigilant and never underestimate a woman’s instincts.
For the first time, I dared to travel all by myself taking public transport. There was something off with that cab, I rode on this morning. There was already a passenger and the driver claimed that it was his wife and he was dropping her nearby. Despite, my hesitations, I went on with the ride. After the lady was dropped off, the cab driver exclaimed that it was her mistress and the lady is still married with five children. Seriously?? What the… Then, he asked important info about me which I was unwilling to give. The way he carried the conversation made me feel uncomfortable. Such subject matter always scared me and made me feel uneasy even with men I used to know. So, do you expect me to entertain a stranger?
Next, I felt like catching my breath because he higher the aircon’s temperature. The heavy traffic made the journey longer. In my mind, if I would stay five minutes longer I would probably be unconscious or suffocate. I secretly opened the window and informed that I wouldn’t go to the location as I agreed. So, I immediately went off the car. What a dishonest man! His meter was running fast than usual… Can you trust such man?
When I reached home, I relayed to my family, the uneasiness that I felt during my cab ride. My sister warned me that many taxi drivers aren’t trustworthy and victimizes their passengers. Well, I must be gone for so long to be unaware of such crimes. Perhaps, I overreacted. However, it was better to take actions rather be sorry later.
Thank you Lord for always protecting me. Keep safe, Gorgeous ❤️ See U🥰🤩😍
Back to ZERO! It’s all for love, Gorgeous
What a dress! My sister is selling pre-loved clothes… My mom suggested that I should try on the floral dress. I adamantly refused for it wasn’t my type. I couldn’t wear such daring spaghetti straps and backless specially I am gaining a lot of weight. Come on, there was no harm on trying. Honestly, I had to saw back one of the traps because I didn’t know it was worn.
I showed my mother the photo of me wearing the dress. My mom said that she was right that I looked good. By the time, o was talking to my mom. My siblings were alarmed because her mouth was twitching and her left eye kept on blinking. My sister called her doctor and so we rushed her to the hospital this morning.
HELP ME, GORGEOUS!!! If only you can listen, SOS!!! Well, we needed to pay the bills and I had to give all my savings. Back to zero but I did again all for love. If I did for Papa, without any second thoughts, I more than willing to give for mama. I have no source of income now but I will make it… Well, me and my siblings didn’t want our Mama to worry. We gave our share to pay the bills. Hopefully, everything will be fine with God’s grace, Gorgeous ❤️
Dancing in the Dark, Gorgeous ❤️
“Perfect” by Camila Cabello and Nicholas Galitzine “Cinderella” (2021) ost movie
This one song that keeps ringing in my head and I used to play it over and over in the past… Remember? It never grew old and when the tune used to play, your presence was felt. Now, I only wished not going out from my dreams where I can dance with you with that lovely and romantic tune in the background.
Oh, boy! I’m glad wasting all my chances and all my desires got stuck in my head because I have nothing to be proud of… All I worked hard for and the career I was too invested disappeared. My optimism perished in the height of the pandemic… It seems that I don’t have any chance to redeem myself.
Perhaps, it’s so impossible to behold your dazzling eyes and hear your manly voice once more. I’m glad to install every inch of you in my mind, heart and soul because even I am dancing in the dark I still have you with my eyes closed, Gorgeous ❤️
Failures will never take away everything about you, Gorgeous ❤️🙏
“Somebody to Love” by Nicholas Galitzine “Cinderella” (2021) ost movie
Let there be LIGHT, Gorgeous ❤️🙏✝️
Our journey in this world is temporary for we are all permanent residents in heaven.
What a disbelief! It has been over a week since my beloved Aunt Mary departed for she’ll be joining all the angels, saints and my Papa in Parousia. My family, relatives and friends mourned for our loss for she’s no longer with us. However, in our hearts we know that she’ll be perpetually resting in God’s place.
Well, I grew up with my Aunt Mary around. She was our neighbor before I was borne and until the point of her departure on earth. I had many memories with her growing up. I used to hangout in her house with my cousins. Most of all, she never missed family outings and celebrations. She was very beautiful with a bit resemblance of the local actress, Jackie Lou Blanco. She was very hardworking, stylish (sort of fashionista like me), cool and never got angry at me. Above all, I witnessed her as a loving, responsible, committed and dedicated mother and wife.
My last bonding with her was hanging out at the beach after my niece’s 18th birthday last May this year. Funny thing, it was unplanned. Out of the blue, I just blurted that she slept over in our place for we would go the beach the next day together with my cousin’s wife and her two children as well as my brother and my nephew. We didn’t bring any food except for rice. Luckily, we were able to enjoy the fresh seafood sold by the fishermen at the beach. We enjoyed each other’s company, the magnificent gift of Mother Nature and the simplicity of life despite the desperations in the midst of the financial crisis brought by the pandemic.
When I saw her again few months ago, I invited her to hangout again. My cousin’s wife said that she was excited about it. Then, while she was in the hospital, my mom had a video call with her and mentioned that we would go to beach if everything went well. Due to COVID restrictions, we couldn’t pay her a visit in the hospital.
Suddenly, the heartbreaking news reached us last last Friday after we went to Basilica del Santo Nino with my siblings, nephew and mom. Sadly, there will be no more hanging out with my Aunt Mary anymore for her thyroid cancer weakened her body. Hence, she had to go and bid adieu to all of us. Although she is gone, the memories forever linger and I am truly grateful to be given the chance to share lots of precious moments and some earthly things I had with her.
Adieu, Aunt Mary! Perhaps, it was a mournful day this afternoon, sending her remains to her resting place but our love for her will stay in our hearts forevermore. We might not the hug, expressive or dramatic family for we are the chill and cool type, still we know in our hearts that we love, care and look after each other despite our imperfections.
My prayers are for my Aunt Mary, my uncle, cousins, nieces and nephews. As the priest said her second name ‘Luz’ means ‘light’ and her light will shine in heaven. Then, together with my Papa and the rest of our departed loveones, her light will shine upon all of us who cherished her very much.
Thank you very much for the good old days and all the memories. My deepest apologies for my shortcomings.
Eternal and peaceful rest is yours, my beloved Aunt Mary🙏✝️❤️
God is with Us, Gorgeous ❤️🙏
My phone is spoil until now, it stopped working on the day of my birthday this year. Jinx! It actually didn’t bother me because I rarely used it nor I am fond of taking selfies. It was my sister who was upset because she used it to capture photos and videos. Applying my technical knowledge, I tried fixing it and I even bought a software online. Sadly, nothing worked. I attempted of sending it for repair but those technicians didn’t know the core issue and the price of the repair skyrocketed from one person to another. Now, I’m running out of cash due to circumstances; hence, my poor phone untouched for a long time. So, I stopped hoping and writing. After all, what I don’t know won’t hurt me, Gorgeous ❤️. Be happy with your life and don’t be on my shoes for you won’t be able to deal with it!
I have special gifts and a lot of potentials but opportunities are elusive. Undeniably, I questioned my abilities and each day I lost my sense of purpose. Some people I used to know were very quick to laugh and judge at others’ downfall… They should have witnessed how I dealt with these ordeals… If they will, their amusement certainly will ascend to greater heights. Congratulations, you got it right! Happy for my misfortunes?
Here, I am losing the face in confronting the world again. I don’t have the courage to even meet and reconnect the many friends I had. All of them occupy a space in my heart but most of the space is yours, Gorgeous next to my father. Aside from that, I cherished all the memories for I was being myself in those moments. Probably, my isolation gives a lot of my friends the impression that I changed. Yes, I do but only physically since I gained a lot of weight. Personally, I am still who I am… the one who is always true and slightly clueless but only very scared…. In my heart, I truly wish to see everyone or hear from them particularly you, Gorgeous. Then, what? I’ll lie or pretend and sugarcoat my life. Well, that won’t work with me for I’m such a bad actress…
Hands up! I’m tired chasing money and worrying how can I manage my bills when I don’t have the source of living anymore. What food can I bring to the table when I am not earning? Is it the issue of my roots? Didn’t God create us all equal? No one is above the other!!! I was almost at the peak of my goal… Then, the harsh wind of fate blown me back to zero.
I honestly abandoned all hopes this week… All I did was pulling an all nighter for nothing and spending my time unproductively like sleeping. Moreover, in all fairness to me, I still tried to keep my sanity and continued with my volunteer work as a Catechist. After our session today, my friend told me that a parent sent her a message. I panicked thinking that I might unknowingly brought my melancholy to one of the sessions since at times I can be oblivious.
I don’t know what I said or done to influence the boy in such manner. Should I question and doubt my gifts and skills? Thank you very much Emmanuel for reminding me with my own words. I have goosebumps after finding out that your name means “God is with US”. You truly live up to your name.
Indeed, God 🙏 is with us, Gorgeous ❤️ You’re surely all the way on the top and far from my reach now. Obviously, you are putting your plans into actions while I am closing my eyes to say my prayers for you. May the Spirit of God illuminates your mind and heart. See you not in Parousia…
Welcome to the Garden of Eden, Gorgeous ❤️ I am honoured to accompany you! See you soon!
It’s 520… and 530 too, Gorgeous!
Gorgeous, a million thanks to you 🥳🥰
Even if I am standing at the edge of the world, I have all the reasons to be grateful. My apologies for being invisible and distant to everyone I cherished as my comrades, allies and friends. I never changed nor depressed, I only needed to face the sudden change of music on my own. Well, I may not have a penny in my pocket… it’s all right for I have a joyful heart filled with ❤️ I can’t thank you more, Gorgeous. Even it’s all in my head, it made my day…
🤟 Gorgeous xoxo 💋
See you & miss u2
May God bless and shield you from the claws of the devil!!!
A joyful day to both of us😘💋😊👌
On this 9th and a month after, Gorgeous!
Is it too late to greet, “Happy New Year!” Are we really happy? Nope, but we have all the reasons to rejoice despite the circumstances. A month after today, my number will increase… do you recall? You do and did even if you tried not to… I get you as always say to all my angels… speaking, what an awful today! Nonetheless, I am still grateful to have a good rest. I couldn’t sleep yesterday. I guess that I only rested for more or less two hours. But thanks to this unfortunate event, I finally had the Saturday for myself…. just doing nothing as always and expected.
Gorgeous, tragedies happen to all of us whether you are good or bad. It doesn’t matter as long as you can have a good laugh and find a purpose to a seemingly meaningless journey on earth. We are sometimes lost in heathen but with God’s grace there’s heaven.
Another worst day— wait? It’s a day I am free…. I lost a lot from the merciless and unjust rules… On top of that, I am missing my midnight angels. indeed, that’s how my story goes similar to the Baudelaires perhaps…always another Count Olaf hindering my passageways. Speaking of Count Olaf, I grieved for his death. He’s on villain that I wanted not to go…
Well it’s great to have a good rest after all… All by myself!
Miss yah, Gorgeous. ILYVM as always. See you and Good night! God bless…
Destined to be an Angel, Gorgeous
This is supposed to be my baby Jesus but it looks like a toddler than an infant. So, I quickly made a baby Jesus that’s simpler. I already cut it out and it will be an effort wasted if I’ll throw it away. Hence, I made some adjustments…. Behold! I have an angel! My DIY nativity almost complete…
Angels are real and they exist. They’ll bring us together once more, Gorgeous. Our paths our soon clear… after all, we are destined to be angels like everyone before us. Don’t worry with what you missed… we have an eternity to live by… 🤟😘
Good night, Gorgeous! Merry Christmas! See u, God bless. Nothing has changed
Forever and a Day, Gorgeous ❤️😇
A feather is where the angel is… I hope you found one too. Sweet dreams, Gorgeous. Have a nic day!!! 🤟 ILY 😘 & IMY… See you again and again!!!
Almost Christmas, Gorgeous
I’m not yet done with my DIY nativity. It’s been awhile since I’ve done this. Well, gotta finish it fast coz it’s almost Christmas. What present should I give you, Gorgeous??? You’ll never hear “Feliz Navidad” my version.
Good nyt & God bless dearest! Gorgeous, ILY 🤟 always! See yah🥰😘 again and again
I wish, I wish… Gorgeous!
There’s no use of cutting off Father Time, tick-tock the clock goes and I am here stuck in nowhere. Certainly, I never envisioned nor outline my life this way where I am back at the bottom. Not so long time ago, I fed my head with all the goals that I intended to achieve. Eventually the spirits of Jezebel and the witches of Camelot wrecked the castle floating on the clouds of my dreams. Come on, I put up a good fight only to be the one spurned and left to rot in the darkness. Was it my error to be unfazed by those little devils or am I cursed with my father’s blood?
This fiasco undeniably blinded me with my sense of purpose. As this old earth pirouettes, I will be dismissed in the minds of the little souls I moved and even the hearts of those friends I cherished. Perhaps, I am more than fortunate to find so many good friends and wonderful people in my lifetime. Honestly, I love and treasure all the memories I spent with each of them. Even if I am nowhere to be found and invisible in all social media platforms, those people I was with will always occupy special spaces in my heart. They’re the best and brilliant, and I just don’t belong anymore. Besides, how can I rise from the mud of nothingness? It turned that I don’t become the person whom I always wanted.
I wish, I wish… Gorgeous. I only have one wish… same wish I pray since I was little teenage girl while looking at the blue moon on the cloudless sky. Gorgeous, I wish, I wish… I hope the Star of David in Bethlehem hears me one last time…
Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand?
Gud nyt, Gorgeous! Have a blessed evening. ILY & IMY. C U again & again…
I’m Enduring, Gorgeous
All my life I waited patiently and my faith never ceased through this year. I am told to be very old but isn’t age just about numbers. This year is the worst time of my life. Nonetheless, I realized that it is the first time of my life when I feel relax and enjoying my sleep. It’s not only the Heavenly voices that I heard in my dreams but yours too and those love ones departed. I am no longer worrying or dreaming about work… Thinking of what to wear and what to do… I used to usually sleep with my work in my thoughts. Now, you are the first and last in my thoughts. Believe it or not! All we have to do is believe that we can do it! My talents wasted? I lift up everything to God. There’s always a time for everything. I trust in God’s time and plans for me.
Merry Christmas, Gorgeous!
I endured all these time, my dearest!
Remember that I always deeply care.
Good night and God bless!
See you again!
Don’t be lonely, Gorgeous!
You seems to have it all my dear but it’s like you’re dwelling in the house of glass. Gorgeous, it isn’t true that no one cares and everyone around is made of plastic. Gorgeous, I hope you silent your mind and heart to allow the Spirit of the Lord speak in your dreams.
My job was my life that my whole being was in turbulence. I was self-indulgent, no different from you. My dreams then were passing and no relevance at all. Likewise, I am more at peace now because I can sleep soundly daily. Above all, I am eating healthily that I am not caring the pounds I gained. (Wait, I should work it out!) Gorgeous, I am not wearing my heels and no fancy clothes daily. My dearest, material things give temporary pleasures. Why? Dig deeper on the theory of wear and tear…
Don’t be lonely, Gorgeous! Stop looking forward for popularity and praises! Be home within yourself and find me in the midst of the core…
ILY & IMY…
God bless you. May the Blessed Mother protect you too.
Sleep tight, Gorgeous! Sweet dreams.
See you again xoxo
My appetite for you, Gorgeous!
I’m hungry and thirsty for you…
I need you here now
I’m calling
Can’t you hear my shout?
I love you
And I want you here
See you again and again
Good night and God bless! Miss yeah!
Gorgeous, let’s bid goodbye to a dearest Angel
Last week, my nephew asked over the phone “what happened to Kira?”
I uttered “She’s an angel now!” And my sister sadly repeated my words.
Gorgeous just a week ago, our family faced a sad news about the unexpected and tragic passing of our bubbly, chatty and energetic little darling Kira. She was my very lively niece and she had the prettiest face. Aside from that, she had long beautiful, dark and full lashes similar to a doll. But, she had a short-lived existence. Our dearest angel departed at the tender age of six.
Today is the feast of Saint Barbara and the funeral of our beloved Kira. I looked at her sadly sleeping lifeless in a wooden box. I couldn’t help admire how she looked similar to a doll. She is always be our little darling. Rest peacefully, my dearest!
Goodbye Kira, you’re an angel now. I believe that you are with Saint Barbara together with Papa and grandma too. Your sudden departure is a dagger buried in our hearts particularly to your parents and grandparents. Our melancholy will not leave soon. Nonetheless, the thought that you will be in Celestial City together with our Almighty Father brings joy and warmth in our hearts. Wait for us in the Gate of Heaven, our little angel. Watch over us and lead us the way to the road of the King of kings.
Dearest Jesus, Kira’s with you. Saint Barbara her innocence and purity is preserved similar to you… and in the clouds she’ll be dancing and singing with you worshipping the Heavenly Father.
Gorgeous, life is indeed short. Our mission still continues, so let’s live meaningfully. God bless, Gorgeous! Good night! Keep safe.
ILY & IMY. God hears our prayers and He answers. See you again.
See you, Gorgeous!
I thank the Heavens for everything especially for creating your existence. Perhaps, it’s lonely to be in your absence but I am never alone for I am always loved. Thanks for the angels I meet everyday and the blessings received each day. Thank you, Gorgeous for not departing my thoughts. You’re always the most gorgeous and special of them all.
Good night, Gorgeous!
Always know that you are forever cherished and loved.
God bless you each day.
Sweet dreams and see you again.
How to melt this loneliness, Gorgeous?
Dear Lord,
I am thankful for the angels who adored and trusted me. Help me work on my skills so that I can do better. The presence of these assorted cherubim bring the glimmering lights in my darkness. Forgive for wanting more and I’m sorry for missing how I used to be. Please don’t take me incorrectly that I am not contented because every time an angel drop by, I always give my smiles, cheerfulness and my best. My Lord, I can’t thank you more.
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Nevertheless, the longings always awaken me in the middle of the night. In the depths of my heart, I wish sincerely if only I can be there. Gorgeous, how to melt this loneliness? My life is what I asked for, simple and hassle-free. Yet, the products of my sleep tell me otherwise. Why can’t I get rid of you when our ways of living are not the same. Gorgeous, the limelight and treasure are yours of which I have none. You are in the pedestal with your sleepless nights while I am in a simple hut hibernating and sleeping more than eight hours. Gorgeous, if only you can find my lighthouse in yours…
xiàng kǒu dēng guāng hū míng hū miè
巷 口 灯 光 忽 明 忽 灭
The light at the end of the lane flashed on and off
shǒu zhōng tián kā fēi yǐ lěng què
手 中 甜 咖 啡 已 冷 却
The sweet coffee in my hands is cold
zuí jiǎo bù jīng yì xiè lòu xiǎng niàn
嘴 角 不 经 意 泄 露 想 念
The corner of the mouth is silent
zài fā dāi de chuāng qián níng jié
在 发 呆 的 窗 前 凝 结
在 没 有 你 的 世 界
In a world without you
(https://www.echinesesong.com)
Gorgeous, I won’t get tired even until eternal days.
I L Y & I M Y…
Good night & God bless! See you all over again!
I’m always here, Gorgeous
Betrayal, misunderstandings, cold treatment and stone hearts… Nuclear bombs thrown at one another. No one surrenders… it just began….
Is it all you want, Gorgeous???
Gorgeous, I’m always here and don’t wait for after life to find your peace.
I am always loving you and hopefully won’t be missing you for long… Forgive for just writing —- See u Gorgeous!
Good night. Sweetest dream! May God grant you peace in your heart, mind and soul!
ILY 🤟 4ever
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Gorgeous, learn from thy father 😇👍
My loving father always reprimanded me to be a woman of God, pray from the heart in all occasions. Constantly, he would remind me to be forgiving and be contented with all my blessings. In addition, he also taught me to spend what I had and earn only an honest centavo. Thanks to him also that I’m independent for Papa always said not to rely on others for survival but count only in my abilities instead. Funny thing about Papa was he rejoiced every time I took courage to get out from my shell. My Papa with no doubt was indeed my most avid fan! Above all, my looks never mattered to him because he always said ‘my uprightness and benevolence are my crowning glory’.
Correspondingly, raising me wasn’t that uncomplicated. There were several times when I gave my father the hardest days of his existence (something I am never proud of but it’s true). I was not as obedient and diligent as my siblings were for I was a carefree spirit and my radical mind wasn’t programmed similar as the rest of my kin. Aside from that, I despised the rules and I sometimes didn’t abide them. Praise God for my abilities of learning fast and my likeable qualities that even I missed many of my classes, I pulled everything out with reasonable grades (and sometimes higher than my expected marks). Probably, it was my good karma! Despite my indelicateness, Papa never castigated nor discredited me. Instead, I would hear him saying to never underestimate what I could do and where my talents would lead me.
As I progressed in this complex world and with my father’s unexpected departure, I was running in circles and the flame within died out. The castle I built in my dreams for my Papa was destroyed by the waves of reality. Hence, I was contented with my simple life and little earnings. No great ambitions nor big dreams. Likewise, the twist and turns of fate, brought me to places I never desired. With every step on the way, I am toughened by all the storms in my life plus all the ebbs and flows. Gorgeous, this roller coaster ride isn’t breezy at all! Hold on, my dearest Gorgeous! I have your back!!! Of course, I’ll catch you when you fall all the time!
I am not born with wealth nor I didn’t choose the land of my birth place. However, no matter how difficult are the circumstances and wherever I’ll be, I am always be who I am and there’s not a single speck of shame with that, Gorgeous. My father should have seen and known that he raised me well for his Godly ways and kind-heartedness influenced and moulded me into a beautiful person (despite my shortcomings).
We’ll find what we all deserve, Gorgeous!
The likes and views don’t make anyone beautiful! All the vanity and fame will perish with time. You know what you already knew and always known.
‘YES!’, the Lord answers.
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