Gorgeous, Have You Been to the Hidden Temple of the Dragons?

Are you praying every morning and during night time?

Are the ones you desire only bring you satisfaction?

Happiness is contentment within, it isn’t forced

It is not available online, not something you can buy

I may not very persuasive but one day you’ll agree

In your travel, did you make a stopover on a holy place?

Have you been to the hidden temple of the dragons?

It is not the place for the desperate but for grateful hearts

Our God does not punish us with lightning from heavens

We will not be condemned but always honoured & rewarded

It shelters us away from fears and shields us from our foes

It is our sanctuary in our downfall, simply at home

Gorgeous, may the Divine’s wisdom aid you in the truth

Whatever it be, let’s celebrate life and sing all sorts of songs

Why hate when love is in us and always around us everyday?

The love you know is only the love you want but not need

In the hidden temple of the dragons, love is overflowing

Find me there, waiting genuinely, tirelessly and patiently

Never giving up despite the many odds and uncertainties

Number increases but there’s no anxieties & wrinkles in my soul

My spirit is always youthful, it remains forever young

Why bother about counting when eternity is in after life?

Be there in the hidden temple of the dragons and be merry

For I am always there for you, I never left for I AM HERE TO STAY!

Gorgeous, I don’t know

I don’t know your side of the story

I won’t push so hard to find out

Whatever that stir your emotions

May time and space calm you down

I don’t know if I miss you at all

But funny how the brain registers

The scents of your cigar and morning coffee

The sound of your voice and the look on your face

I don’t know where you are in the globe

Hope you’re having the time of your life

Doing the extremes, making the extraordinary

Always in the spirit, not alone in the crowd

I don’t know what tomorrow will be

Still I keep my hopes high, doing my best all the time

Not asking so much what others can’t give

I will just remain to be true and love everything I do

I don’t know those rules, I don’t live by them

As long as the intentions are authentic and pure

No one can go wrong and let judgments be

Let’s embrace happiness for liberty is ours anyway

I don’t know if you hear the genuineness in my voice

Still I continuously pray for you everyday

It’s through God, I am reaching to you

Embracing you when your day turns imperfect

I don’t know anything and many things

I am born in those vintage days when life is simple

Pictures are not filtered and photoshopped

Not in a fake show in front of an audience in social media

I don’t know what happened to you yesterday

Still you’re that same person better that everyone else

We are not aliens for the world is ours to conquer

We are all angels for there’s goodness resides in all of us

(Last Sunday, in Father Eugene’s sermon he stated that all of us feel lonely. The more people you are surrounded with, the lonelier you are… The more you hang around technology, the more the desperation and frustration arise within. The more fame and power you’ll gain, the faster that emptiness in no time will eat you inside out. There’s always that hollowness within that’s why welcome those who are true for through them you’ll see your path clearly.)

An eye for an eye, Gorgeous

MATTHEW 5:38-42

Jesus said to his disciples: “You have heard that it was said, An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. But I say to you, offer no resistance to one who is evil. When someone strikes you on your right cheek, turn the other one to him as well. If anyone wants to go to law with you over your tunic, hand him your cloak as well. Should anyone press you into service for one mile, go with him for two miles. Give to the one who asks of you, and do not turn your back on one who wants to borrow.”

Meditation

When someone strikes you on your right cheek, turn the other one to him as well. (Matthew 5:39)

No pain, no gain. You reap what you sow. The punishment should fit the crime. These sayings express our belief in natural consequences and proportional justice. In today’s Gospel reading, Jesus addresses the Jewish version of this principle: “An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth” (see Leviticus 24:20). It may sound harsh to us, but the people would have understood it as a merciful commandment that curbed anger and placed a limit on revenge.

But even that’s not merciful enough for Jesus. He tells his listeners to turn the other cheek and to offer no resistance whatsoever to an enemy. By going beyond what’s challenging but reasonable, Jesus gets to the heart of the Law: the disproportionate, undeserved mercy of God.

Looking back at these words through the lens of Jesus’ death and resurrection, we can see how he perfectly fulfilled this command. But it wasn’t only during his final days that Jesus turned the other cheek. According to St. John Paul II,

Turning the other cheek is hard, but don’t get discouraged. Jesus knows how hard it is. He won’t condemn you if you should fall to the temptation to seek revenge or to withhold forgiveness. He’ll simply do what he has always done—turn the other cheek, forgive you, and offer you more of his grace to do better.

“Jesus, thank you for your constant mercy and grace!”

(Today’s bible reading reflection courtesy of my friend)

(The banner I designed as a backdrop on the stage for next week’s event. I didn’t expect that I would asked to this. I’m grateful that I have skills to share in the service of God. I know in my heart He listens and He’s not blind to my loneliness and daily struggles.)

Gorgeous, Always Making Paps the Proudest❤️🥰😍

Paps, you were my avid fan and even I was quiet of my extracurricular activities, nothing was kept secret to you. Even if I was grumpy and indolent at times, you knew very well that I am capable of doing a lot of things. Guess what, I have improved now and learned new things. Recently, I learned how to bake different kinds of bread and saw clothes. Aside from manual and digital drawing and painting, I painted on 3D models. My student called the artworks as 3D sculptures. But, it doesn’t look nice for now… I’ll just keep trying to improve myself. Next in line, I’m going to do cross stitch. I only hope I can do something sporty to add on my list.

As of today, it was not my intention after the 6pm mass but I did anyway because the girl in my session couldn’t make for the rehearsal for next week’s procession. I promised her Mother that I would relay the details of the rehearsal. So, I helped by assisting the pretty little flower girls… The whole thing ended very late and I reached home around 10.30pm.

Imagine, Paps did it ever occur to you that I am going to be a Catechist or become a teacher? I was the lazy one among my siblings with regards to school matters. And on top of that, I was the rebel yet admired and loved by so many. Look at me now, I guess people do change. One thing remain the same I am still the jolly one.

(My own version of optical illusion in digital art using PicsArt app)

I dreamt of you smiling at me. I woke up with joy and contentment in my heart. Thank you for everything. I love you very much and I won’t get tired of praying and dreaming of you.

Gorgeous, My Heart Still Remains True

Nothing can change one’s destiny but it doesn’t matter as long as the heart remains true. Perhaps, I am such a pain in your point of view but I am a blessing to others. Anyone has the right to hate me for being true to myself, I won’t question or judge them. Instead, I’ll just continue to do good deeds and do my best in everything I do. Honestly, I am disappointed of myself today because I was unable to meet my goal. I was all worried in my head because I failed to compile everything. Of course, I needed all the diversions because I was so stressed with how time flew so fast and I still had so many things left undone.

Gorgeous, I had nothing more to say because I already wrote my side of the story. A priest once told me that there was nothing incorrect of expressing myself. Moreover, how my words be taken isn’t in my control. Thus, all I could do is to accept my fate and move forward. After all, I am certain of what I am doing despite how my actions are misunderstood. I don’t have to beg or convince or manipulate others to win them over…. no need to try so hard. Let things be for now and let time pacify a heart in fury. Above all, allow God to heal one’s wrath in order to see with clarity and be able to unmask who is who. One thing is certain, when one is not in the room, I am not the one who has so many ill things to say. Be careful who is in front of you and always with because they are the ones very dangerous and have a lot of things to say. As wise men always say, “one’s greatest enemy isn’t the person one hated the most but surprisingly it is someone who is only within the circle”.

As of the moment, my major concern is losing weight because I can’t fit in most of my clothes (no bodycon for me only oversized will do) and my face is so bloated…. I AM NECK-LESS!!! (as always😔😖) I am so overweight that I can’t walk on my high heels. Now, I have no choice but to wear sneakers and flats. Sad life, indeed… Haha! Joke…

No more procastinations… zumba more and complete the 10,000 steps a week!!! Haay, many things left unaccomplished.

Well, whatever there is and however everyone treats me, my heart still remains true for that’s the only thing I know how to do❤️😍

Gorgeous, Blessed are We😇😘

Not so long ago, numbers did threaten me

Fantasies ruled over, a search in desperation

Hurting the one who never did me wrong

Trying so hard in portraying a bad version of me

Opening the doors forbidden, a route of no return

Blissfulness was brief for the sorrow was more

No joy in sins for my spirit was burned in hell

Just a single step, I was falling out from grace

How blessed I am for God never abandoned me!

I turned Him down thrice but He never gave up

Thank you Lord for sending me good people

Pulling me out from the darkness of my narrow tunnel

Thank you Lord for sharing me Your wisdom

My directions to always follow the right path

Gorgeous, we are blessed because we are loved more

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(I told my friend about the good news today and I also said the words below)

Yesterday, I searched in desperation

Thus, I fell out from grace

Today, God is my rock and salvation

So, I believe everything will fall into place🙏🏻❤️😇

Waltzing with Someone Gorgeous

Our hearts have plenty of cracks

Something weighing heavily inside

Unreasonable unexplained annoyance

Wondering how or why this happen

Suddenly, you ask me for a dance

Soulful and crazy songs playing

Revealing ‘I’m no longer young’

The spring of my youth is gone

You never shrugged or bothered

You gorgeously smiled at me

Never bothered those prying eyes

Though I am tense and went on

I’m waltzing with someone gorgeous

Reality is harsh with so much tensions

Yet, we’ll surpass these trials

The coldness will melt in time

Finding our hearts not only in dreams

Enjoying the tempo of mix songs

Gorgeous, Be Zen with Me!!!

Relax, chill and be peaceful

Be cool as a cucumber, my dear

Worry not of many things at all

Specially those you can’t change

Once in awhile be happy-go-lucky

Gorgeous, be zen with me everyday

Be carefree, take all the stress away!

Gorgeous, indeed I’m feeling zen this time

What’s next? Only the Almighty knows

I just let tomorrow worries for itself ❤️🙏🏻😇

(It’s the last day??? No way!!! I demand an extension!!! But wait, I am already broke 😓😩)

Not All Angels Have Wings, Gorgeous!

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All dressed for adventures but it turned out not possible

Indeed, I had all the reasons to grumble and be upset

Too money wasted on the wrong choices that I made

Contrary to what was expected, I didn’t explode at all

The turmoil of emotions didn’t get me instead I was calm

Looking around me, there were kindness and gentleness

Why should I dwell only on how my day turned to be sour?

Thank you everyone for giving me a delightful day!

You know my dearest gorgeous, not all angels have wings

They are present in our daily routines wherever we are

Why choose to be in hell when someone can bring you to heaven?

Our hearts need eyes to determine their presence each day

After all, ‘what is truly essential is invisible to our sight

Always bear in mind, it is only through our hearts that we can see clearly.’

Of course, you and I are born angels too! No doubt about it!

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Long and Winding Road, Gorgeous!!!

On the foggy morning, a risky trip to discover the wonder of nature

The mist covering the highway, the rising and falling of heartbeats

The way so stiff, on the long and winding road traveled by a few

On the peak of the mountain, the clouds beneath my feet

Glory to the Almighty! Reaching the heavens, I’m in cloud nine!

An adventure like no other, wearing a wedge and body-con dress

I’m not just a faddist but a risk-taker and adventurer too!

Gorgeous, the long and winding road on a very fast track

I am filled with awe of merging creativity of God and men!

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Lord, You are indeed quick to answer. Without assurance and knowing, there was a church. I lift up everything to you. I am nothing but a weakling, lend me your strength and grant me the gifts of the Holy Spirit.

Happy birthday to our Catholic Church! Indirectly, I attended mass and rest with peace within. Lord, like the apostles, I will do my best to speak the truth with love, justice and gentleness❤️

Help me to keep my words and whatever the consequences remind me not to give up! Not with my own human strengths but with your ultimate and unfathomable Divine powers.

One Faith, Gorgeous!

One’s religion is not only the ultimate saving grace for our deeds and what’s in our hearts do matter too. All of us are the same, we have one faith and believe in the divine. Our practices may differ but our hearts are one.

I said a little prayer for your safety and happiness. Indeed, it was exhausting day but there was something I witnessed and uncovered of how others exercise their faith. I even walked barefooted…

The marvellous architecture of the Temples were breathtaking. The hot sun didn’t burn my feet because I am filled with awe and gratefulness in my heat. I thanked the Almighty for keeping me safe too. I had fun even my clothes didn’t look good on me😂😂😂😆😆😆

Gorgeous, luv my first😘😍❤️

Whatever I am called, the ones who judged me aren’t perfect. May God bless their souls!!!

Shop until I dropped!!! Or broke😅😆😊🤣😂😂 It was not the place for your highnesses… We are royalty too😘🥰 I’m your queen and your my king❤️❤️❤️

Spread good vibes… my first and I couldn’t get enough!!! Luv it to the core… wanna wanting more😘❤️❤️

Gorgeous, thank you for the food!

I met an angel early in the morning whom filled my early delight with prayers and love. My dear, you’re truly heaven sent. I am blessed indeed to hear the words of encouragements from your lips. Thank you dear God for the radiant light shared from your beautiful creation in order to start my day with grateful and joyful heart.

Indeed, I fully comprehended what my Friend told me that those who are in darkness are afraid of the light. The devil can test me a hundred fold but my prayers are never fruitless. No matter how many times that I am ditched, ignored and treated badly, I will still be guided with my virtues and be true to myself.

Gorgeous, cheer up and peace be with you! Obviously, you have everything on the palm. Of course, your hands are full still I’ll keep you in my prayers that may the water won’t run dry and you may abide in Him too. Gorgeous, He abides in you and me, and everyone else.

Baking Time, Gorgeous!

Pizza and focaccia freshly baked! I spent my holiday baking with my friends. It took some time of waiting but the crust and bread tasted heavenly!!! Thanks to my friend for sharing and also for being very accommodating. Love the tea party and pasta for lunch. I can’t wait to try everything on my own. I celebrated Hari Raya for dinner… Well, what a fulfilling day😍😊😇

Gorgeous, everybody’s happy😘😊🥰

Birthdays come once a year

Make everyone feel special

Bring joys to each other’s hearts

Pass the word around with delight

From my love ones and colleagues

Even in above with my Papa in heaven

Let’s celebrate without hesitations

Come on gorgeous! Bring out the cake!!!

Gorgeous, everybody’s indeed happy!!!

Thank you for judging me because I am become stronger, kinder, more understanding and much happier. I am not good with men and even there’s communication breakdown… I still have good perspective with everything in life❤️😇☺️

Gorgeous, 780 steps and progressive

I heard you loud and clear, the volume of your voice was high (no denying about it). I am not stalking, you just made it so obvious. I thought that I would cry walking home or be broken-hearted. Nonetheless, the little pain had in my heart was converted to the joy of my generosity and thoughtfulness. You always have your complaints toward us as if you’re perfect.

Well, you may got yourself a girl and you must be in love. Certainly, I felt like a fool but not the loser because being with someone isn’t heaven. Can you be who you are and treat her same way? If you do, well, maybe no sex for you at all.

Once I violated the rules only to uncover that being true to yourself always matter. It is expected that you are mean to me because you don’t need me to a favour. I hope all the things I did were not sugar-coated or pretenses.

I am lazy because I only managed to do 780 steps but I won’t give up. I will never give up….

Gorgeous, blazing flames from the heavens!

Look at us, we are all materialistic. Do brands, labels and price tags really matter? Is it all about the money and status? What are we doing with our lives? Where all of these will lead us? Are we fooling ourselves to these insignificant and irrelevant matters?

No matter how others fake themselves and doing their best to be available. No matter what, our personalities will shine and come into the light. Of course, we make the most of our separate lives. But God gives us this gift and it’s the most beautiful thing in the world. ALL WE NEED IS TAKE THE RISK? Will you??? No more pretending and let’s be who we are—

Today is the celebration for the Solemnity of Ascension when Jesus ascended to heaven. Then, on the 9th June, is the reminder of how God loved us and how Jesus kept His promise. It is the birthday of Catholic Church, the Pentecost day. Many years ago, the blazing flames from heaven descended to give courage and inspire the apostles to spread across the globe in delivering the good news to all creations. Gorgeous, our beliefs may differ but what’s in the hearts really matter.

You may deny it several times, but you know it too well even if I am speechless.

Gorgeous, everybody’s happy

Well, one of the happiest places… everyone was delighted and looked beautiful.

My niece’s birthday celebration. All of were thrilled and joyous. Well, you should be here because everybody was happy. I should have asked… likewise, you never gave me the chance… so, as usual I kept quiet… I am not that forward or aggressive—

Maybe, next time then🥰😘❤️😍 But, make it easy for me!!!!

Gorgeous, the trumphets blasted in my core

I slept with nothing on while my artificial candle burning. The physical sore of any sorts, I lifted to God. Lord, forgive for being human and a woman. Humbly admitting to my imperfections, and so I pray for strength to be in control as the captain of my ship. Whatever there was in the wilderness of my head will never be my reality…

Unexpectedly there, I sat like a stone. I am still and not moving. Well, my apologies for whatever wildest daydreams played in my head. Gorgeous blasted in my core that I couldn’t hear the music from my phone. It was one fine morning, indeed! Oops, I brought something but I forgot to share…

I am here and there… I am everywhere… printing, teaching, prep for training materials, taking photos of 3D models…Well, work seemed non-stop but I still managed to attend the Ascencion mass. Afterwards, I met up with my friend’s mom and bro. Then, together we had a delicious dinner in another friend’s house. Lastly, I went around 11pm because I was being a good friend providing a good company….

Gorgeous, thanks for making me feel this way. Thank you for my dreams are on my own. I want to make you feel the happiest and most satisfied. You chose to be where you are and absolutely fine with that (even it hurts a little☹️)

Gorgeous, Ronin is in the House!

Clint Barton, my darling superhero in flesh!!! Gorgeous, how can I ignore??? The sun shine the brightest indeed! But, apparently not that long—

Well, I did my best to help. In my core, I know that I am doing my best to help and assist others and those in needs of my skills. I am not good in talking, flirting, manipulating and twisting stories. I know my reason even if unheard. After all, there’s two sides of a coin.

Finding faults at its finest! Who cares if I only have bows and arrows finding heartless and cold robots!!! After all, my weapons are made out of truthfulness, dedication, humility, compassion and sincerity… System may be made of hierarchy but when it comes to service, you don’t have to inform the bosses what you have done… for in my ways, I am hero too even I only have bows and arrows.

Gorgeous, it was the vow I made

Yesterday, I drained out my energy and experienced this terrible headache (even until now). There was unplanned assistance I made that overlooked what was expected of me. Honestly, I was on my way to have another performance of my life as for other’s sake. But I sincerely apologised for the failure of executing it. I was on the kind of duty, which I was unable to escape. It was unplanned but I ended up going home late.☹️😫😩

Probably this headache is caused by my deprived hormones revolting to triumph over my suppressing power. I was super tired that I even dozed off while watching halfway the 470th episode of Naruto Shippuden. Before I drifted, I had my resources and materials ready to prepare for today’s session but when I opened my eyes it was already passed 2am. I went back to sleep again and finally forced myself to wake up around 7am. I didn’t cram and rush to equip myself for what should I relay to the kids today. I got my rosary and prayed.

This time I vowed not only to pray because I am scared or worried. I promised that I will keep on praying because like my forefathers: Abraham, Isaac, Joseph, Moses, King David and many others— I too believe and have faith as humongous as theirs…

Unprepared? My friend commented that everything went well. Then, the sharing of the kids made me joyful and praised God wholeheartedly. Thank you Lord for the gift of the present of the Holy Spirit present in the come and the children today! Thank you sisters Dolores Hart and Clare Crockett for the stories you wrote on your blank pages inspired us to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit!

Gorgeous, I am sorry that I failed you. Moreover, as I looked for some document, I found one of the many letters that I never sent to you. Then, the vow I wrote reminded me that at that moment I was filled with the Holy Spirit. I composed those words with the words from Him and I honoured. I intend to keep my vow… Gorgeous, I meant it!

Out of nowhere, it was your voice that awakened me this morning that gave me energy to be there for the kids today. Thanks and I mean it too🙏🏻

Gorgeous, our solitude in space

Were we lost or gone?

Did we vanish in another realm?

Perhaps, our choices ended nothing

Always lingering in our souls

Forever etched in our hearts

At times, we needed to be ourselves

Breathing the air of liberty

I may all not knowing at all

But I know I never walk alone

For the Divine’s watching over us

Arms length, our solitude in space

Despite it all, I’m here always…

Gorgeous, I can show you the world

Bread for breakfast, freshly baked last night! It would be good a combination with coffee. My friends loved it and according to them, it was soft and tasty. I brought some to share. While I was practicing my lines, I looked down and saw her unashamed talking despite of many eyes around. It didn’t bother her that she was paid to do her responsibilities, not to flirt early in the morning. I swallowed all the words that I rehearsed and said, ‘perhaps, she’s the kind who always the guys. After all, you never appreciated my courage, jolliness, generosity and thoughtfulness.’

I am heartbroken early in the morning. Hey, I am not paid to flirt around and get prospects! I won’t fail my little angels. I did my job and executed my responsibilities. I lift up my sadness up high and prayed for joy in facing the children God sent to me.

I will never understand the game of love for it is not something I want because it is a must or what I need. I love because it happens, out of my wits and out of my control. It is God’s will to share my goodness, no more pushing them away or running off and disappearing act. If one day, you will ask ‘why?’ My answer is not sugarcoated, not exaggerated, so simple and straight to the point.

‘Because you exist… and it doesn’t matter how many times you hate me… whether you bad or in your worst… there’ll will be no difference. Never I will less in stead, it will be more and more. It will flourish and grow to inspire the world the real meaning of selfless and unconditional.’ I should no better because Jesus chose me to seve Him too. The master I knew taught me how to be selfless and to love unconditionally. I may not be like Sister Clare or Sister Doris Hart. I won’t walk the same paths as them because Gos enlisted me to a different mission.

Gorgeous, I can show you the world… the line from the lyrics of my all time fave movie Aladdin. I remembered when my locker’s wallpaper was Princess Jasmine and Aladdin. What an obsession but definitely not you!!!! Live action is out!!! I hope to preview it on the big screen not only in my dreams with you. Gorgeous, you don’t mind…

It’s a long way to you, gorgeous❤️

4 stops in different directions. First stop, a quick painting and breakfast with my sister at my brother’s place. Thanks sis for making the milk tea! Got to go.

Second stop, late for the appointment for the baking session in my friend’s place. It was quite embarassing because I was the last one to come. Blame it to MRT shutdown. There was no train service at that station. Well, the pasta, barbecue chicken and the mushroom soup was super tasty. Then, the bread we baked was the best. Too bad I only had a quickie for dinner with sphagetti, porkchop and tea. My bad that I couldn’t stay long because I had a church meeting.

Third stop, am I the last one to come again? Well, the church was closed because today is public holiday. So, we had a good who offered her home to host our meeting and to prepare for our upcoming Saturday Catechism session. Thanks to my friend for welcoming us in her home with the warmth and hospitality. Thank you for the lime juice and cakes for midnight snacks. What a coincidence! The bag I used had this keychain on, it was what my friend that her daughter gave for teachers’ day two years ago.

Fourth stop, home sweet bed. Now, I can finally rest and be with you… in my sweet dreams… Good night and sweet dreams, gorgeous!

I can be your sHERO, Gorgeous

In this vast world, I am indeed a nobody but I have a magnanimous heart willing to put others’ needs before mine.

Perhaps, you are looking up at somebody shining afar in the galaxy.

Nonetheless, this nobody someday will be somebody who is someone who will always be there for you.

I have my flaws and weaknesses but I can your be your sHERO, gorgeous!

After all, I am attracted to Jesus as a teacher. Like John the Baptist, I am a catechist too. Thus, I am always find joy in the path of my choice; keep on praying for you and others as well; step on my pride instead be humble always; be the master over my weaknesses; and face the truth and spread only the truth in God’s name.

Sound, holy? I hope I am! Honestly, I’m a still very far from being one but I will do my best to fight the beasts within. After all, I am my worst enemy.

I maybe too old but I am still child-like and naive at times. Despite of that, I am still a strong and brave woman who is always ready to confront the impossible. Trust me, I can be your sHERO, gorgeous! Believe it because I am truly one!!!

It was worth coming, yesterday even it was a full day event.

Gorgeous, if I were a boy

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
‘Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
‘Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy, I’ll surely be turned off with girls who chase boys and use their feminine prowess to win over boys. I like discrete ones not those narcissistic and vain breed who have nothing better with their lives but hang out 24/7 on social media platforms. I will be drawn to the kind who are gentle, generous, strong and prayerful… the ones who improve in their crafts, financially independent, confident of their own skin, hardworking, responsible, reliable and trustworthy are the apples of my eyes…..

Probably, I turned to be the kind of woman that I am, not to please others or because it is expected. But it is who I am and how lessons in life changed and transformed me to be—

Gorgeous, I’m more than glad you’re here!

Was I early? Nope, it was the usual and it was the least I expected. I knew too well what you were like when the sun is up. I let you be not feeling dejected because I am more than you were there. I am honoured to be the first. So, I am not grumpy (as you were) but I gave you my smile filled with true happiness of celebration.

Let’s celebrate! My heart exploded that very moment but as it always been I am very clever in hiding and suppressing what’s in there all this time. Of course, the feeling wasn’t the same but I know that you would come around. Indeed, you did… it was all enough for me. I am not insistent, needy and clingy.

I’ll remain around the corner because nothing good comes out in forcing others. Let them be… besides, I have my ways of finding little joys and entertainment. Someone as shallow as me is easily contented, fast to appreciate and quick to forgive.

Whatever there is, no matter how I I am pushed to my limits. I will choose to be for I didn’t how I used to be— not wearing the angry victim mask anymore. I am always the gentle and jolly girl, my Father raised.

Gorgeous, Heaven Weeps Today

On my way home, it is cloudy and suddenly it rains cats and dogs when I reached my destination. Gorgeous, after all so many tragedies happening around the globe. The Almighty must be dismayed but He doesn’t throw thunder bolts to those who did Him wrong. Well, Heaven weeps today for the coldness of so many in the world. God sends beautiful people who truly cares with clear intentions and pure hearts. Do you overlook and take them for granted? No worries, their forgiving hearts maybe taken for granted still they’ll choose not to hold grudges no matter how painful it is to bear. The angels of God are boring and misunderstood in this modern era but they still chose to carry the cross because there’s eternity and heaven after life. Reminder, the three main virtues: justice, hope and love. The greatest of them all is love. I know…

Gorgeous, not in a million years…

Happy Birthday, Paps!!! It’s a celebration. See, I will never ever forget. I gave a treat even faraway from home, keeping my promise to have a mass for you today. Even from a distance, I initiated a mini celebration for you. I even donated a mass celebration this evening at SVDP. We attended mass before we went out for a dinner and ice cream stop. Your celebration is complete minus you. Guess what, as it has been, it’s my treat! I don’t mind the spending as long as it’s for you.

I’ll never forget, not even million years will pass by. I loved you and forever will… you’re always alive in my heart and you never depart. I am doing my best to be with you. You know what, I messed up and almost lost my cool. What I did, I asked the kids to repeat their singing and their prayers. One child reacted, seriously!’ I replied, ‘Yes!’ We ended a bit later but I hope that the story of St John Bosco inspired them in practicing the virtues of fortitude🙏🏻

Gorgeous, you always knew but you chose to…

A boy told me today, “I saw you yesterday but you didn’t see me. You were so pretty!” Pretty? I was not wearing tons of make-up or had fake lashes on. Honestly, my face was even very oily, as it always been. My stuff are not branded, everything I own is on sale. I don’t have dyed blonde hair and tattoo on my back or any parts of my body. I am not vain nor narcistic, I don’t hang around FB or IG. I am naturally boring and one ordinary simpleton.

I’m glad a naive boy saw a beauty skin deep. I hope that one day he won’t grow up admiring and looking at those ‘ho’s and b*tch**!!! God knows no matter how desperate I’ll be, I’ll turn to Him so that I won’t transform into one.

Being kind is stupid and having a good heart is weak. I am told that for several times. Likewise, even if I am unhappy, I am the stupidest and the weakest of them all. A friend before she left told me that all my good deeds, kindness and generosity wouldn’t matter, be remembered and unapreciated. You always knew but you made a choice to ignore it. Indeed, it was so painful, the one who was disliked by many deserved such…. why did I ditched myself? You always did. You were the one who always pushed me away and always cut md out. I found ways to keep my distance and not to be caught with you at the same time. See, now I am not that early!!! I understand that you didn’t want to be seen around me. I don’t chase butterflies nor try so hard to walk on your shoes… like what you like…. be cool to impress… just like those too trying hards…. I AM ME!!!If that was the basis of being noticed, I didn’t want any. Indded, I’m very thankful to all of those who walked into my life… No chasing and pretensions…

I pray everyday that more than anything else I’ll have the strength to remain a beautiful person and be able to share my light to others. But, today I can’t help but be reminded what my friend told me that I AM NEVER APPRECIATED. I am good with that because it doesn’t matter. My light may fade for now and my heart is covered with darkness still I’ll continue to love life and trust my Creator.

First package received and opened when I reached home, I ordered one pair and received two. Consequences must be a joker…

Gorgeous, here goes my heart again!

In the middle afternoon, a child gave me a cute heart origami. (I tossed it on the keyboard of my computer, so I came up with this unintentional idea of how to composed this photo).

Oh, please, little girl! Oh my, don’t remind me. The secret is my own❤️

I will always be shy and naive. But, hey I was someone’s angel for awhile. If I am an angel, then that makes you a God. Someone I looked up to, hope for… always cherished eternally in my heart.

Well, I may be bashful to approach and make a move to any guy. All I know what to do is to remain neutral by treating everyone fairly. I am the type who has weak knees up close to you but I can surely eat a lot. Thank you for the fruit delivery. I chewed the seeds until nothing was left. The fact is having guava for breakfast was a good healthy choice. Thanks to the team for the reminder of how to start my day with a healthy lifestyle.

I slept earlier but I was just woken up from a dream of you. Oh my, gorgeous what power you must possessed… here goes my heart again!!!!

Again and again.

Gorgeous, I am literally wounded

Well, to come out with something, materials are useless with human will to do, ability to endure, patience to wait despite of time wasted and the effort to keep on doing despite the failures. Of course, the point is, people should realise a clay will remain a useless soil unless someone will mould and shape it into a sculpture or ornament.

Similarly, in producing 3D objects, the material and equipment won’t print by their own and operate independently. Some complicated objects may require assembling, of which the process involves sanding and scraping. Reminding me that I still haven’t found one of the blades of my hobby knife set.

Since, the printer jammed I had a little burn on my right hand while fixing the plate. While scraping one of the parts, my right index finger was suddenly bleeding. Oh my gorgeous, I was literally wounded! I didn’t make a fuss or noise about it. I wiped the blood away and went on to finish the tasks immediately. As my mama always said, come on a simple scratch is far from the stomach. It hurts but it doesn’t kill me. Moreover, I can claim the word coined in my dream. The word was ‘LEGO-cy’. In that dream someone explained to me that it’s my LEGO-legacy. Indeed, it is… a product of my blood and sweat, and my wits and creativity. Shh… don’t tell anyone, it’s our secret!

Virtues applied:

Perseverance: finishing what I started and overcoming all the obstacles. Repeating several times to get the desired outcome.

Foresight: I think carefully, gathered the info needed by equipping myself the right materials required.

Modesty: Not to score points and to get the spotlight. I didn’t show-off to everyone, always keeping my head low. I uttered those jokingly to find out what others think. Gorgeous, deep within, I know that in your heart of hearts you are fully aware that it wasn’t easy. No one will do the same because it is out of my good intent and pureness of my heart.

Gorgeous, Never Not Love You

I was told to be delusional. They said, ‘please, quit the wishful thinking!’

But here I am believing in that glimmer of hope.

How do you define love? Is it something good worth keeping? Is it what benefit or you gain for it?

Yet, loves meaning may vary on to the individual. I don’t have to argue or make a stand.

Love is love. It doesn’t have to be complex with elaborate explanations. Love knows no reason and it doesn’t complete anyone. Love is beyond skin deep for it is finding the goodness within…

Gorgeous, I’ll never not love you because that’s who I am. This isn’t an obsession or desperation. Love is worth keeping, a gift from God that I am willing to share with you.

Gorgeous, when tomorrow comes

I paused to pray. I planned and prepared. Go ahead, judge me as you please…

Still up until this time…. I am preparing for my volunteer session tomorrow in the church. Reading online and published references, and of course also the session plan. Who said that I don’t jot notes manually to compose and pen down how the session goes…

Gorgeous, when tomorrow comes I am on my own but I have faith in my Creator and the gifts He bestows upon me. My response may be interpreted as rude. But I believe that I am not obliged to submit to blind obedience. I don’t pretend and I am not fake. In practicing the virtue of foresight, I am reminded to be aware and beware of the serpent. The snake is always ready to bite but I have hundreds of angels in my defence.

Gorgeous, when tomorrow comes you will comprehend my side of the story. You just don’t have any idea what were the negative words said. Despite of that, I am grateful to God for surrounding me with wonderful people who see me beyond the wrong allegations. My imperfections make me human and my mistakes teach me to correct my flaws. Whatever and however people see or judge me, one thing is certain, I don’t fake a smile… I am always true to myself.WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU GET!!! No need to impress… staying calm and cool for I AM WHO I AM.

Gorgeous, even it takes time…

My first 3D object painting is a failure. Sorry, Groot for I failed you. Forgive me Gorgeous for not meeting your standards.

The 3D LEGO object of Groot took several hours to complete On printing out including the failed ones.

Finally, it was completed. Moreover, it was not the end yet. Next, I had to spray it with a primer (the odorous smell polluted my room). Afterwards, I waited patiently it to dry before I applied the acrylic paint. Oops, I needed to rush for my baking Lesson yesterday. No time to sand at all because I left my house around 3pm and went back more or less around 10.15pm. Come on, sanding wouldn’t matter at all. It was some minor step, the primer would probably the trick. Maybe, possibly…

Baking baguette and buns took was really time-consuming. Thanks to my instructor for the clarity, technique and info. Well, May 1st was indeed a Labour Day. I toiled the whole day long by painting and baking.

The bread I made wasn’t that perfect but at least I made the first step to learn.

My 3D painting was ugly but I am not discouraged. Even it takes time, I am willing and eager to learn new skills.

This Saturday, I promised my Sister that I would bake bread with our nieces.

As for my 3D object, I’ll print another one and change the filament. I’ll keep on trying until I’ll get it right.

Failure is never a hindrance for it is an inspiration to strive in learning and finding my strength. I remembered my first charcoal artwork was a mess and totally a mediocre compared to my classmates. I wanted to withdraw from the course. Then, my teacher said, ‘everyone started from the beginning even masters did.’ So, I went on even I was very slow… I may not one of the masters now but at least I took a leap to learn new things and never limited myself.

Gorgeous, even it takes time… I will go on cheerfully and I will have the courage never ever to give myself a single reason to quit.

Who’s quitting now?

Gorgeous, sometimes something good is bad

Last year, it was a right decision not to join my family on Good Friday because my attention was focused on my prayers and fasting. This year, I did join them and ate the local delicacy my brother prepared. We abstained from eating meat so he cooked fish for a very late dinner and I ate.

As a result… I woke up shivering at 5.20 am, the following day. I rushed to the toilet because my stomach was turning upside down. I was on bed the whole morning because my body felt being battered. I even joked at my sister stating that it was like joining the fraternity and I am being paddled. Late afternoon, I forced myself to leave the house along with my nieces and sis because a friend invited us to attend a play. I was nauseated and I vomitted in between our trips. So, on our way home, I decided to take a cab. My temperature increased so high that I was shaking and moaning at same time. My sis advised me to sleep outside. I did while I was lying on the couch, I lifted my pain to Jesus. I was sweating endlessly until morning. Alleluia! God indeed was risen, my fever did subside. I woke up hungry so I ate very early for breakfast. Afterwards, my stomach became the issue because I kept disposing liquid instead of something solid.

During the mass, I couldn’t stand for a long time because my stomach was so painful but I persevered until the end of the whole service. Thinking it was ordinary diarrhea, I bought carbon caps but it didn’t work. After my sister gave me a massage, she found out from her research that me, my brother and sister-in-law were food poisoned. Then, my sister suspected that the culprit could be the jackfruit and my sis-in-law added or it could be the fish because it didn’t look fresh.

Despite my diarrhea, I still went on with my work but the stomach discomfort were at times unbearable. Luckily, my room wasn’t that far from the restroom so it was very accessible for me specially in that situation. After work, I still attended the evening meeting and what I shared became the center of the conversation. Me and my big mouth. Prior to that, I took my sweet time to get myself a delicious dinner but all the good taste were puked and flushed into the toilet. Right after I reached home, I ran to the toilet and all the carbon tabs I took were also flushed.

This morning, the cycle was the same: nausea, vomitting and diarrhea. Sorry to all the kids I love for we’ll just miss each other today. God knows my heart doesn’t want to miss this day but I have to prioritize my health. Hence, I decided to take a medical leave to seek a professional advise.

See, gorgeous! Food is good for our body. Yet, with so little or too much or incorrect consumption it can be damaging. For sometimes something good is bad… you know too well that I have all the good intentions but everything you see in different light and unappreciated. I am not an attention-seeker, I am very homely. I don’t use mobile devices 24/7 hanging on social media prying on other people’s lives or to expose my narcism like there’s no tomorrow. I am not good in chatting but I did put an effort despite of me being scared. I can read and watch all the dating books and videos still none works for me. This is really me, I am very shy and I easily tremble inside. You think, it was easy for me but it took me tons of courage to do so…. my hands and feet were cold everytime. So, all I left is be myself. Love everything and everyone around me. Be grateful to God and to pray for you everyday.

I am never on Facebook nor on IG, I have no interesting stories. But, it’s alright. I always do interesting things for myself, others and God in closed doors. It’s not for the world to know, it is mine to keep. I don’t want the spotlight on me, as much as possible, I preferred off-cam. After all, modesty is the virtue. Most of all, I am happy… I am very very happy despite feeling sick.

Too bad, I am off from work today when I already prepared what to wear tomorrow.


Gorgeous, be careful with the kiss of Judas

When you cursed someone you already dug your own grave

And when you betrayed your King, you wished not to exist…

A lot of woman are sweet but are good words come out in their lips?

Some women are physically perfect in human standards but can they be trusted?

😇😇😇

(from Psalm 69: 1-35)

2

Save me, God,

for the waters* have reached my neck.a

3

I have sunk into the mire of the deep,

where there is no foothold.

I have gone down to the watery depths;

the flood overwhelms me.b

4

I am weary with crying out;

my throat is parched.

My eyes fail,

from looking for my God.c

5

More numerous than the hairs of my head

are those who hate me without cause.d

Those who would destroy me are mighty,

my enemies without reason.

Must I now restore

what I did not steal?*

II

6

God, you know my folly;

my faults are not hidden from you.

7

Let those who wait in hope for you, LORD of hosts,

not be shamed because of me.

Let those who seek you, God of Israel,e

not be disgraced because of me.

8

For it is on your account I bear insult,

that disgrace covers my face.

13

Those who sit in the gate gossip about me;

drunkards make me the butt of songs.

III

14

But I will pray to you, LORD,

at a favorable time.

God, in your abundant kindness, answer me

with your sure deliverance.j

15

Rescue me from the mire,k

and do not let me sink.

Rescue me from those who hate me

and from the watery depths.

16

Do not let the flood waters overwhelm me,

nor the deep swallow me,

nor the pit close its mouth over me.

17

Answer me, LORD, in your generous love;

in your great mercy turn to me.

18

Do not hide your face from your servant;

hasten to answer me, for I am in distress.l

19

Come and redeem my life;

because of my enemies ransom me.

20

You know my reproach, my shame, my disgrace;

before you stand all my foes.

21

Insult has broken my heart, and I despair;

I looked for compassion, but there was none,

for comforters, but found none.

24

Make their eyes so dim they cannot see;

keep their backs ever feeble.

33

“See, you lowly ones, and be glad;

you who seek God, take heart!s

34

For the LORD hears the poor,

and does not spurn those in bondage.

35

Let the heaven and the earth praise him,

the seas and whatever moves in them!

I woke up dreaming of you. I can’t sleep again. So, I composed this instead.

Gorgeous, Once Precious JEWEL

Been there first, gorgeous

Breathtaking indeed

One of the kind like you

Not available around the globe

Gladly I arrived in clandestine

I will never spill the beans

Come discover too the JEWEL

Present in me, all yours to explore!!!

For my eyes only for now

In my phone, copies captured

As always, willing to wait

Patience is the virtue

Possessed not only by the Divine!!!

Gorgeous, I am a servant

After mass, I was scolded for being rude by an old lady in front of my nieces. Well, my side of the story was we were waiting for a table and I was so naive in believing that in public places people are supposedly to be considerate and willing to share the space to others. I asked nicely but perhaps I was unheard. The other lady was already done with her food while the other was finishing her noodle (which was already a quarter of her plate). The place was packe because it was already dinner time. So, I made the wrong presumption that those elderly women would be done when our order would come (which was served 20 minutes later). I kept quiet with the whole ordeal, I was in shocked and numbed for being accused as one. The old ladies attended the same mass as we did since they had the same palms that we were holding. It was a public place and the area was so small and crowded. There were no other place to stand. We already asked to share a table with a willing couple but the table was so small to fit the four of us. So, we decided to wait for the two elderly women to leave the table since our other order wasn’t ready yet. If they disliked the sight my nieces standing near the table, they could have said something when I asked. The sad part was, we were following the same religion and attended the same church. Yet, what was with the foul attitude. I let it off while I was scolded, I prayed for self-control and also for the scene to end abruptly. It wasn’t my intention to be rude. I pitied my nieces for witnessing the scene. But, my sister told them not take the experience in the heart.

The priest said a meaningful message about the importance of the celebration of Lent. But are we those who kneel down and pray in the Adoration Room, and judge others outside? Are we Christians because we do not want to feel lonely and be in the Church for the sense of belongingness? Are we Christians because we are aware that without Christ we are nothing and a nobody? Do we say our grace before meals and scold people afterwards? Anyway, my faith is not based on others who judged me who know nothing of who I am. I could have apologised but I was afraid that the auntie was a war freak and scandalous woman. So, I chose to be modest and kept my silence.

Today is the celebration of Palm Sunday. During our session, we re-enacted the scene when Jesus washed the disciples’ feet. Some kids said it was a gross and yucky experience. But, the message was we are called to serve others. People are welcome to judge me but no one can take away my willingness and pure intentions in serving others through my gifts and talents. I am everybody’s servant and yours too. I am a servant, abiding, humble, meek and obedient. Forgive me, Lord to cause the madness of those old ladies for whatever they felt towards me in that situation.

What is faith for me?

My faith is shaped by my culture.

It is sharpened by my encounters and experiences (whether bad or good).

Above all, it is strenghtened by…

my hunger and thirst of the Holy Spirit,

…my undying love for Jesus

…my strong desire and hope to be with my Creator in Heaven one day