Isn’t she lucky? Am I the unfortunate one?
Can I buy new specs for his heart too?
If that’s the case, he can surely see me
Everyday I pray, I hope not to see him
He’s so gorgeous it’s killing me inside
I don’t want to catch him in my ride
For it will never make him joyous at all
My presence annoys and disgusts him
I really want to be in her shoes right now
Because he worships her like a goddess
He doesn’t mind spending all his cash for her
He’s willing to do all favours to please her
He only sees her beauty like she’s an angel
How I envy for he’s a gentleman to her but not to me!
When was that time when people I used to know
Generously gave, no computations, no divisions
Was it that long when people really see the beauty in me?
Am I too old to try? Do I have another chance?
Yet, there were sacrifices I had to make in the past
And I had other priorities and I was very scared
Thank you to those people I used to know
For the appreciation, generosity and time
Thank you for seeing me for he never did
What can I do when I thought that I can and I’m ready
No one is there and no one even take a look?
He always see only those pleasing in the sight
Can you tell him that I am a good company too?
Can you tell him that I am sincere and truthful?
Can you tell him that I’m not faking just to please him?
Can you tell him that I am not always gloomy?
I am adventurous, carefree and open-minded too!
Can you tell him that I am already falling for him?
Although he’s getting in my nerves and disappoint me
Can you tell him that if he only cares and see
He will surely uncover what love truly means
To the past: no turning back for we only move forward
For I truly don’t know what I lost until it’s gone
He can never be any of you because he who he is…
Will he ever see and appreciate me one day?
Will he ever find it in his heart that I’m worth it???
Will I continue hiding in my silence again and again?
I am not really good in getting the guy. My expertise is how to lose a guy in an instant. I made a perfect score in making all the guys I liked to despise me and gave them the reasons to hate me to their cores. I don’t even know how to act or say to get their interests. I wanted to try being flirty but it’s just too difficult for me. I only know how to write but not how to speak. I kept my distance because he doesn’t want me there. At least I said what I had to say…
I wanted to be the fake me… the isolated one and distant. I was outside this afternoon, I may not be looking but I am not deaf. I could hear clearly his joyful voice while walking with her on the pathway…
Should I tell him that I had a Valentine’s Day present too? Can anyone help me pass it to him because I will never have the courage to do so? A gift maybe not that pricy but at least not divided by four… I forgot u can only do that to her and not to me… I was hoping there was always a maybe…
If I said whatever I said… it was not because of the price of the gift… it was out of disappointment…. and the fault was mine coz I expected too much! (People are too loaded to buy expensive stuff why so stingy to be generous. Why was it a big deal? Never even ever give me a treat!!! Not even once!! Sometimes I am also nicely dressed, there were male and female colleagues who told me but he never ever see or not even noticed just even once… only criticised me for being overly dressed)
My Heart’s Day gift is actually useless and no point for him for he probably brought a special present for her which I couldn’t have. Definitely they were happily exchanging gifts, dating and that more…. on that special day…. whereby in my darkest and wildest fantasies and dreams…it’s only me!!! Him and I we shared that moment, didn’t we while I am sleeping? Or we can, shall we?
By Celine Dion & Barbra Streisand “Tell Him”
*Celine Dion, my sis and I all-time fave singer… thanks for the track coz the joke brought back so many memories…