At the corner of the world

If I’ll put all those series of dreams into words,

A beautiful story will be born for everyone

Not only to ignite the imagination of the dead

But to awaken sleeping hearts hopeless in love

For we exist not only to survive and be the victors

On this winding road, at the highway of nowhere

We found each other on the web of no escape

None of us is divine, we can be friends and foes

Yet, at the corner of the world, far from your reach

Dwelling all by myself, comforted by your thoughts

I could only be my old school ways and hibernate

For living in the wild where I used to be before

Indirectly hurting the ones who owed me nothing

The guilt tortured me, my sensitivity at its brink

Only my tears became my comfort in isolation

I’d rather be discreet and unknown from the rest

At the corner of the world, anonimously yours

Scribbling sweet love letters unsent to your mail

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Coz I’m Bad…

My immaturity crawled to my spine, poisoning my brain and darkened my heart. “It’s the triumph of the young, rich and pretty!” I had no edge at all. I am already thrown out of the ring even before I entered the arena.

What did I do? And she was there again… 🤯😡😡🖤😡🤯🤬 Where was he? He always came to the rescue for her sake. I was very unfair because I didn’t even talk to the person. Forgive me Father for this darkness within me. I should not feel this way.

I am not talking! No way!!! I wanted to be where I am… Yet, a smile and friendliness put out the fire in my soul.

What was my problem? How dare me to utter those words? When a friend mentioned his real whereabouts, my conscience was so disappointed at me for my false allegations.

Why did I jump into conclusion and judge him immediately? Why was he not angry when he was there? At that point of time, I was expecting him to be mad (kinda used to it) but he wasn’t.

Forgive me Father coz I am bad… I am really bad girl yesterday😬😭

I kept repeating in my head the words from 1Corinthians 13… to remind me of how badly I acted at that instance.

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails.

Indeed, what was wrong with me then? I should be truly happy. What’s with this strange feeling anyway? I won’t surely dare to ask forgiveness face-to-face coz I’m also a coward. So what if I am no match for any of them? There’s one thing that I am certain, I will surely love him above all and I’ll bring him pride, honour and happiness. With all my abilities, I’ll make heaven on earth for his sake. After life, I’ll go beyond the depths of hell to bring his soul to heaven.