Sometimes you don’t feel like waking up
You don’t want to go to work and play dead
Sometimes you don’t want to climb the stairs
For every steps remind you of the smiles
Those laughter and chitchat shared
Sometimes you refused to continue
Never signed the papers for the card
Never complied the requirements necessary
I always thought that I could belong
Be always be the friend to everyone else
I just wanted to be happy wherever I am
Bring smiles to others and be there for them
Then, the trauma of the passed returned
It was not for real and all for man’s greed
Silence of the lamb, the echo of fears inside
Why would I cry when he was there?
Should I be sad underneath his embrace?
For in moments when I am down
All I need is a simple care and a little cheer
Why do they make feel I am worst?
Am I everything but bad and mad to them?
So many people knows me better and more
I am not who they painted me in their heads
There’s no one there when I weep alone
Only the hug of the devil in a memory
Pulling me down to the pit of nothing…