Will I forget? Didn’t I make this choice a decade ago?
Was it just another episode of a dream last night?
The voice from the past haunting me till now
Should I run off then when the offer was there?
Can I trade high heels and nice dresses for affection?
Will I abandon my books and paintbrushes for you?
Am I ready to dwell not in my dream house?
How can I explain to my friends or face my family?
Is my happiness connected to what will others say?
I made this choice and I chose not to believe then
For I thought, love was illusion and you were unreal
A make believe story of youth and a poem I wrote
Last night, in my thoughts you waited for so long
Didn’t I always make you wait and hard to persuade?
From a distance you traveled into my thoughts
“Are you alright?” you asked (you always cared)
I bubbly and quickly replied and you were not convinced
Out of my thoughts awaken alone in my bed
I asked repeatedly, ‘am I?’ in my dreams I did lie
If I given up what I have now for you, will I be happier?
Blame me not, if I chose not to follow and stayed
I was young, carefree, confident and independent
My liberty was everything and I was a big dreamer
Forgive me if I never believed that you did care
Somehow I did matter to you and I am loved by you
I was confused, always a coward and uncertain
Did I say those words? Did I tell you I also care?
Thank you for being so brave in loving me
I wish I can be you to have the courage to love him
I cared for you in my ways but I love him above all…
How did you do that? Teach me how to let him know!
How to say I love you when the past is in the past?
How to say I love you when the present can’t see?
“Let It Go” by Idina Menzel ost Frozen