U will never get it, I don’t expect that u will. I’m always invisible and unseen. U never looked down, always looking up. I quitted the game, uninstalled… I’ll never reach that level, I am definitely nothing and worthless. How depressing… How sad!!! The secret is mine to keep. Only for the joke, someone temporary. Will u ever see my worth and the real woman in me?
I am home with upset stomach. I asked my sister and my friend the silliest question in the world, ‘am I happy?’ Both of them said, ‘yes’. Actually, they nodded in confusion. Yes? Am I?
I am all about the heels and looking good because I am hiding so much pain inside. Always the friend… Only the friend.
I have no rights to complain. I am ok. It’s almost Father’s Day. Thank you Papa for loving me despite my indifference and weaknesses. I told you, ‘you’re the man I will love forevermore’. Perhaps, I can’t love anyone freely same as I loved you. Perhaps, I’m selfish and stuck in my so called ‘pathetic’ world. What do they know? None of them knew anything. I love you, Papa. I have so much love to give and share. It’s difficult to get out from my mother’s curse. Why frown? I have your love in my heart, I won’t ask from anyone who’s unwilling to share and won’t possibly want me anyway. Thanks for seeing my best and allowing me to take care and love you. I won’t wish for more. I guess, what I had in the past is good enough for me. I will never love at all for my heels are not high enough.
Papa, you encouraged me to wear high heels. You said I looked fabulous walking on them. Too bad, my heels are not high enough. Nobody cares and no one even noticed.